soul mate

my life is pretty much evaluated to a point where , its jus complicated on the whole. Complicated meaning, no solutions, never -solving problems , always hurting and very little control at any point of time.

I am however responsible for the situation to be as such.
My heart is the soul culprit .

These are the times i wish i had someone to hug, the times i had someone to cry my lungs out, the times when i jus could lie on the shoulders and feel warmth.

Im sick of having instances like this where im unable fully express any emotion and jus get to the zombie mode.


I miss him terribly. Men jus come and go...most of them that ive met... they always want something... Including "HIm"...but why do i still only think and feel abt him.. when hes the least who gives a two shit about me..